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I've got carpenters in my house so I can't leave the house.  I can barely leave the office because of this dog who won't stop whining so if I take the gate down he'll just get in their way.  I can't even put the gate up in the living room instead because the guys have to walk through there.

I hope they don't stay all day, but I have a feeling they will!

So, last few days have been NKOTB days so if you don't feel like slogging through my talking about that you can skip this bit.

NKOTB blather )

I contacted college asking how I could keep tabs on what they have received and what they haven't.  I was supposed to get a student ID after I applied and I either never got it or deleted it by accident.  I just hate waiting on people and would like to know sooner rather than later if there are things I need to get rolling.  I think it's too late for spring but I would like to enroll in summer classes if I can.  I'm not sure how that will work out considering we've already planned a vacation, but we'll see.
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 I'm impatiently waiting for things to go through on the other end as far as school application goes.  I think I've done everything I can, now I have to wait for my high school to get me my information, my college to write up a file on why I was on academic probation, my FAFSA to go through and my two college transcripts to go through.

My son did great at his Lion King performance last night.  I signed him up with the same instructor to do Aladdin next week!  

And like, I totally understand having the right to be annoyed at stuff but what I can't stand is people saying "oh I can't stand drama queens" and then they go on to spy on people's twitter timelines and tell me about it and just bring up random pet peeves all the time about being invited to a baby shower when you don't know the people, but you are friends with the grandmother-to-be, and that's probably why she invited you, because maybe she doesn't know any of her daughter's friends either, and she just wants someone she knows to be there with her?

It's like, I know things can't be awesome all the time but I firmly believe when you think negatively you attract negativity.  And yes I know at a certain point you get tired of being your own personal cheerleader but you kind of have to do it anyway and try to take every small positive thing and help it grow.  You can't just go "oh look there's a cool thing" and walk past it.  You have to take it and shine it and help it grow into other parts of your life.  Make it bigger than it is until it actually is that big.  You can't just take every good thing as a fluke and leave it alone.

Yes some days I feel like giving up too.  I'll look like a big old hyprocrite next time I come in here and say everything sucks, I want out.  Yes it does suck that I'm not really happy with my husband.  It sucks that I'm not coping with parenting as well as I should be.  I hate to sound like a Pollyanna all the time when most of the time I'm down in the dumps myself.  

I think I'm about to get in a fight with this girl I'm texting with because she just asked me if my friend's 6 year old was planned or an oops because her other children are a lot older.  Like that's any of your (or my) business!  I told her "I have no idea, that's not the kind of thing I ask people"

Seriously!  Okay so maybe most people don't have a bunch of mommy groups online where you learn that's like the #1 question you do not ask.

Anyway.  I think I upset her.  She hasn't answered.  Oh well!
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 So, something I haven't posted about yet.  I'm applying to college again!  

When I graduated high school I enrolled in college for psychology.  I had always enjoyed my psych classes in high school and done well in them.  I liked thinking about how the mind works.  I enjoyed abnormal psych, child psych, all the basic stuff I got to take.  I loved the experiments we learned about, from the more disturbing ones about following orders to the ones about how people like to feel like they're part of a crowd, and will little by little join a group of people who is staring at nothing, just so they don't feel left out.  I still remember carrying out this experiment in class.  We walked in and the teacher was staring at the ceiling in one corner and little by little everyone joined her even though nothing was there.  Interesting stuff.

So, I went to college.  I had bad experience after bad experience, experimented with being a slut for a while, had bad room mates, started skipping a lot of classes and eventually my entire rep was destroyed.  I left after a year and a half, despite wanting to beat the odds and come out on top.  I just didn't have a strong enough personality to overcome all that.  To live it down.

I still have nightmares about that place.  Common nightmares about standing in line to drop a class or being late for a class or being lost, basically a lot of things that actually did happen.  LOL

So now that I am a more well adjusted adult (oh who am I kidding, I'm just as messed up, I just know how to handle it better now) I decided to apply again.  We live down the street from one of the branches of UMass.  So I decided what the heck?

Let me tell you, it's like night and day compared to how applying to colleges was back in the 90's.  Remember snail mailing your applications, waiting for guidance counselors to get your high school transcripts ready to also snail mail, waiting for the felt like it took forever!  No more.  In 2 days I have gotten all my ducks in a row.  FAFSA forms done, transcripts requested, still waiting to hear from my high school, but that's about it!

I am excited! Even my son is intrigued at the prospect of mommy going back to school.  My husband has been supportive even offering to help me figure out tonight what direction I want to go after getting my psychology degree.  Should I minor? What should I do in grad school?

I'm not even sure what I want to do with it.  There are lots of ways I could go.  I thought it would be interesting to have an online practice, either through e mails or private chat rooms, for teenagers and tweens who don't have the time to go to a physical office, or who feel awkward talking with a psych face to face.  I'm not sure if that could work out, with confidentiality and all that, but it would be interesting to explore.  Other than that, maybe a school psych.  I think I do prefer teen/preteen age groups to adults or smaller children.  But we shall see, as my studies develop, what interests me.  



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