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 So after my surgery, they put in a catheter to keep my bladder drained so it would heal right. I was supposed to get the catheter taken out yesterday, but they did a CT scan to make sure there were no leaks in the bladder, and there was. Apparently there is a small tear at the incision. So I have to keep the catheter in and go get checked in another week. Fingers crossed that it is all healed up by then.

I know I said some heavy stuff in the last entry. I do feel like something has to give. I just don't know how to come back from being this dissatisfied. And if like I fear, the tear is caused by not getting enough help at home, I don't want to risk that again. We'll never really know, though, if it was from him not letting me rest enough or just if I turned funny in my sleep one night or something. I haven't even really approached my feelings with my husband. It seems he kind of knows that I'm unhappy but is doing a really good job of putting his head in the sand. Not like he doesn't care, but that he just...doesn't know what to do? I guess. It's just really hard when things seem obvious to me but he doesn't have a clue.