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Sep. 25th, 2017 01:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
becomingkate I've been feeling especially lonely over the last month or so. I guess because, even though I am "out in the world", going to classes, nothing has changed for me, socially. Nobody is jumping at the chance to get to know me. I even feel like these classes in particular are more lecture and less discussion than I envisioned. I kind of hoped I'd be more social, and that I'd be given more of a chance to do so. But I guess that kind of thing is up to me-however when 90+% of the class is 18 years old, I'm having a hard time picking out the people I might connect with. (I suppose I could start with that 10% that is closer to my age group.) I'm not the type of person to show up to a club, either. So I guess my only limitations are the ones I put on myself.
Classes are going better and worse than I expected. My grades for the astronomy labs last week were posted today and I did quite well. Not sure how I pulled that off or if I'd be able to recreate it. But there it is. I've been obsessively keeping track of my grades and assignments and doing whatever extra credit I can.
I failed a Race Relations quiz. The questions were so weirdly worded I didn't know what to do with them. I've contributed to the message board discussions and been keeping up with the reading though, so I'm getting points where I can. English Lit is going well. I think I'm doing better than I expected in that, too. I seem to grasp the messages in these stories better than I hoped. History is well, dry, but interesting. Quiz on Friday.
But yeah, feeling lonely. It's that time of year where I was so happy last year at this time, that feeling is notably missing now. I was even browsing meetup.com last night. It looked, as I suspected, a little thin. Like, lots of members of groups but very low attendance.
Classes are going better and worse than I expected. My grades for the astronomy labs last week were posted today and I did quite well. Not sure how I pulled that off or if I'd be able to recreate it. But there it is. I've been obsessively keeping track of my grades and assignments and doing whatever extra credit I can.
I failed a Race Relations quiz. The questions were so weirdly worded I didn't know what to do with them. I've contributed to the message board discussions and been keeping up with the reading though, so I'm getting points where I can. English Lit is going well. I think I'm doing better than I expected in that, too. I seem to grasp the messages in these stories better than I hoped. History is well, dry, but interesting. Quiz on Friday.
But yeah, feeling lonely. It's that time of year where I was so happy last year at this time, that feeling is notably missing now. I was even browsing meetup.com last night. It looked, as I suspected, a little thin. Like, lots of members of groups but very low attendance.
