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becomingkateI'd really like to apologize for yesterday's entry. That's not who I want to be. Whatever ugly demon that was, I think it's gone now. Well, sort of.
I'm on pills again. Maybe my writing will be better once they kick in. Maybe it will be worse.
So on to the entertaining stuff-
My son has started in with repeating everything he hears. This can be good or bad. He uses kind phrases towards us and the cats, but then will turn around and drop an F-bomb. This morning he said "hate" a couple times. My husband heard it first, and then after he left my son said it again. "I hate all this music!" he exclaimed when one of his shows ended and one of those annoying song interludes in between shows started up. Now I know he didn't mean it. He loves music. He knows all the words to every show on Noggin and Nick Jr. (thanks, mother in law) So I just told him not to use the word hate, that it's a very strong word. He said okay, and his eyes glazed over as he fixated on the tv again.
I don't normally leave him in front of the TV that much. It's just that he's been feeling a little under the weather over the last couple days, and he's almost 3. Those two factors tell me it's okay for both of us to have a little alone time. I love the kid. He's just much easier to handle from a distance, sometimes.
Isn't it funny, when you watch someone else take care of your kid, you can lean back and kind of step outside the picture and see how amazing he is. But when you're up close, and you're the one handling it, it can just be a big struggle and it's hard to see that the struggles are just him growing, and learning how to handle what life's throwing at him.
I'm on pills again. Maybe my writing will be better once they kick in. Maybe it will be worse.
So on to the entertaining stuff-
My son has started in with repeating everything he hears. This can be good or bad. He uses kind phrases towards us and the cats, but then will turn around and drop an F-bomb. This morning he said "hate" a couple times. My husband heard it first, and then after he left my son said it again. "I hate all this music!" he exclaimed when one of his shows ended and one of those annoying song interludes in between shows started up. Now I know he didn't mean it. He loves music. He knows all the words to every show on Noggin and Nick Jr. (thanks, mother in law) So I just told him not to use the word hate, that it's a very strong word. He said okay, and his eyes glazed over as he fixated on the tv again.
I don't normally leave him in front of the TV that much. It's just that he's been feeling a little under the weather over the last couple days, and he's almost 3. Those two factors tell me it's okay for both of us to have a little alone time. I love the kid. He's just much easier to handle from a distance, sometimes.
Isn't it funny, when you watch someone else take care of your kid, you can lean back and kind of step outside the picture and see how amazing he is. But when you're up close, and you're the one handling it, it can just be a big struggle and it's hard to see that the struggles are just him growing, and learning how to handle what life's throwing at him.
