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Sep. 15th, 2013 07:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
becomingkate I feel so blah. I'm realizing how much weight I'm gaining when my clothes don't fit anymore. I'm constantly tugging down my shirt or hiking up my pants and trying to adjust my posture so I don't look fat, or worse, pregnant. Ugh. I've really got to move around more often. It's really sad that there's a treadmill in the house and I don't use it.
I had a draining day, not because I was busy but because I spent 4 hours at a kid's birthday party and hardly spoke to anyone. I didn't know anyone. They had nothing to do to entertain the parents while the kids played in the bouncy house. I mean I don't expect a party for the parents but if the party is at the residence there better be something, at least a magician so the parents can kind of enjoy that. Not just sit and watch the kids play outside. We've had parties at the house, but they were 2 hours.
I took my son to the family therapist today and he told her he thinks I should see "someone like her" ie a therapist. LOL. So even my son thinks I'm the one with the issues. He is sort of opening up to her, but when he gets home he tells me "some kids are like this, mom" like there's nothing he can do to adjust his behavior, and I know there is, because he doesn't misbehave for anyone but us and occasionally my MIL.
He said "When you punish me I love you a little bit less every time" and "punishing doesn't work so you shouldn't do it". Ha! If I didn't care, I wouldn't do it. I would probably just leave. But I care, and I want this kid to grow up right so I keep trying. I keep telling myself one day he'll understand. If he's still speaking to me by then.
I had a draining day, not because I was busy but because I spent 4 hours at a kid's birthday party and hardly spoke to anyone. I didn't know anyone. They had nothing to do to entertain the parents while the kids played in the bouncy house. I mean I don't expect a party for the parents but if the party is at the residence there better be something, at least a magician so the parents can kind of enjoy that. Not just sit and watch the kids play outside. We've had parties at the house, but they were 2 hours.
I took my son to the family therapist today and he told her he thinks I should see "someone like her" ie a therapist. LOL. So even my son thinks I'm the one with the issues. He is sort of opening up to her, but when he gets home he tells me "some kids are like this, mom" like there's nothing he can do to adjust his behavior, and I know there is, because he doesn't misbehave for anyone but us and occasionally my MIL.
He said "When you punish me I love you a little bit less every time" and "punishing doesn't work so you shouldn't do it". Ha! If I didn't care, I wouldn't do it. I would probably just leave. But I care, and I want this kid to grow up right so I keep trying. I keep telling myself one day he'll understand. If he's still speaking to me by then.
