I am not alone

Step 3: returned to the UU church.  It was very refreshing and renewing.  The fact that it was the minister's last sermon at that church was not lost on me.  It's a time of change for a lot of things and people.  Summer is coming.  Kids are graduating from their current class, folks are moving to new homes, summer homes, retiring, changing jobs, losing jobs, having children, losing children, rebuilding lives.

I'm reading about the new and exciting things going on at the restaurant and I'm bummed.  I do wish I could do it.  I thought it would be my ticket to bigger and better things.  Maybe it still is.  But I wish I could have lasted there.

Food is still a problem.  I love food, specifically, food that is bad for me.  I'm allowed to have one vice, right?  Still it sucks to have success working out and then come home and not be able to control my eating.  It's like I don't feel full until I feel sick.  And the more I think about how fucked up that is, the more I want to stuff food in my mouth.

Sometimes I'm afraid I'm taking on too much.  I don't believe that change can come quickly but I am impatient.  There is so much I want to do.