Blast from the past

I just got back in touch with a former coworker.  It's a long, sad story but let's just say we let some harmless flirting go a little too far--not physically, but emotionally.  We still kept in touch by e mail after I left that job (partially because of him, but mostly because I needed more of a challenge).  He dropped off the face of the earth a couple times, but the last time he did it--about a year ago?--I was sure he was gone forever.  Guess not.  He found me on facebook a few days ago.  At first I thought he was just going to add me just to have friends but then he contacted me and we've had some light, catching-up conversation since then.  I found out he still thinks about me "all the time" but has been dating the same girl for 3 years.  And to be fair, I think about him too, not all the time, but whenever I hear a certain song, or I smell the type of food I used to cook at that job, or the breeze hits me the right way and it reminds me of the nights we used to walk to our cars together after work.  But, not all the time.

I could have ignored him, or even sent him a "sorry, I've moved on" e mail.  But I didn't.  I added him before you could say "glutton for punishment" and posted a gushy hello right on his page.  (I'd had a couple drinks.  I should have sent him a private message.)  He replied by calling me his "little redhead"--right on my page.  I'm sure that raised some eyebrows amongst my facebook friends--a few of which are family.  I still haven't gotten any questions though.  I guess they figure I wouldn't put something so vastly personal on my facebook page if there was something to hide.  They apparently don't know me.

So, here we are.  Do I want to see him again?  Yes.  Am I dying to just kiss him once, just to see what it's like?  Yes.  Am I a horrible person?  I think so.