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May. 21st, 2013 09:45 amHad sort of a wakeup call yesterday. I have this one friend, H, who likes to gossip. I don't engage her in it most of the time. I just let her talk and then she's done. So in a related story there were 3 girls who missed the nkotb cruise. They either lost their passports or had a misspelling in one of their documents or something and were turned away from the boat. All of them are trying to get nkotb's attention, sympathy, I don't know what, but I know nkotb won't do anything about it. It's not their job to get involved with stuff like that.
So just without even thinking I thought I DM'ed H on twitter and I said I can't believe these girls want nkotb to pay them back for missing the cruise...and I sent it to one of the girls who missed the cruise. I knew as soon as I did it but unfortunately with people glued to their phones these days, she read it immediately. I'd been trying to be sympathetic with her because really I do feel for them but I don't believe nkotb should pay them back. So I tried to cover my tracks when really I should have just apologized. I tried to tell her I was talking about the other girls, not her. She didn't seem too upset but it is hard to tell online and she hasn't really talked to me since.
I felt awful because I didn't even really mean it. I don't care if they want to try to get nkotb to pay them back. Good luck to them! I was just talking out of my ass. It wasn't that big a deal to her I don't think. But I'm going to try to watch what I say from now on. It's really out of character for me to gossip. I think it's a side effect of me feeling bad about my own life. You know what people say, some people talk about other people's faults instead of fixing their own. I just never thought I'd become that kind of person and I want it to stop.
So just without even thinking I thought I DM'ed H on twitter and I said I can't believe these girls want nkotb to pay them back for missing the cruise...and I sent it to one of the girls who missed the cruise. I knew as soon as I did it but unfortunately with people glued to their phones these days, she read it immediately. I'd been trying to be sympathetic with her because really I do feel for them but I don't believe nkotb should pay them back. So I tried to cover my tracks when really I should have just apologized. I tried to tell her I was talking about the other girls, not her. She didn't seem too upset but it is hard to tell online and she hasn't really talked to me since.
I felt awful because I didn't even really mean it. I don't care if they want to try to get nkotb to pay them back. Good luck to them! I was just talking out of my ass. It wasn't that big a deal to her I don't think. But I'm going to try to watch what I say from now on. It's really out of character for me to gossip. I think it's a side effect of me feeling bad about my own life. You know what people say, some people talk about other people's faults instead of fixing their own. I just never thought I'd become that kind of person and I want it to stop.
