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becomingkateToday is feel sorry for myself day.
I made a last minute decision to go to the nkotbsb concert at Fenway tomorrow. It's all my husband's fault--I was fine with not going, I had already bought a ticket to the Boston Garden show and then they announced Fenway, and I didn't have enough money at the time for both. So a few days ago I walked in the house after dropping off our son at preschool and my husband said "You know, Fenway tickets aren't very expensive on ebay. Why haven't you gotten any?"
So that was enough hint for me. But I have been to so many nkotb events by myself or as a tag along, I wanted to find someone to actually go with. Shouldn't be hard, right? Between the girls I'd met on the cruise and a couple friends from home who expressed jealousy when I talked about past nkotb events, surely I'd be able to find someone to at least have a drink with beforehand, even if they already had a ticket.
No go. Not even the people who already had tickets took me up on my offer to meet up before the show. I even asked my husband because he has not had a nkotb experience and I would love to share one with him. He couldn't get the time off.
I asked my sister in law, who I went to a backstreet boys concert with many years ago. She was busy.
So I bought my solo ticket and announced my happiness on twitter. Nothing. No "oh, you're going? we're going to dinner, want to come?" Nothing.
I am sick of being the last person people think of, if they think of me at all. I'm tired of being the loner who attaches to a group of girls who all know each other just so I don't feel like a loser. I'm tired of being left out. I know I have zero personality but it makes me sad that people would rather be friends with gossipers and backstabbers instead of someone who keeps her mouth shut and just wants to have a good time.
I made a last minute decision to go to the nkotbsb concert at Fenway tomorrow. It's all my husband's fault--I was fine with not going, I had already bought a ticket to the Boston Garden show and then they announced Fenway, and I didn't have enough money at the time for both. So a few days ago I walked in the house after dropping off our son at preschool and my husband said "You know, Fenway tickets aren't very expensive on ebay. Why haven't you gotten any?"
So that was enough hint for me. But I have been to so many nkotb events by myself or as a tag along, I wanted to find someone to actually go with. Shouldn't be hard, right? Between the girls I'd met on the cruise and a couple friends from home who expressed jealousy when I talked about past nkotb events, surely I'd be able to find someone to at least have a drink with beforehand, even if they already had a ticket.
No go. Not even the people who already had tickets took me up on my offer to meet up before the show. I even asked my husband because he has not had a nkotb experience and I would love to share one with him. He couldn't get the time off.
I asked my sister in law, who I went to a backstreet boys concert with many years ago. She was busy.
So I bought my solo ticket and announced my happiness on twitter. Nothing. No "oh, you're going? we're going to dinner, want to come?" Nothing.
I am sick of being the last person people think of, if they think of me at all. I'm tired of being the loner who attaches to a group of girls who all know each other just so I don't feel like a loser. I'm tired of being left out. I know I have zero personality but it makes me sad that people would rather be friends with gossipers and backstabbers instead of someone who keeps her mouth shut and just wants to have a good time.
