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As I thought, I haven't been doing great at keeping up with this journal.
My son is doing well, we use the monster spray still, not every night but most nights he asks for it. He's having this odd problem at night now where he feels "old". I have asked him what that means and he can't clarify. His stomach hurts, his legs hurt, etc. etc. which I think may have to do with growing pains as we took him to the dr. before and they found nothing wrong. But he says the feeling old is something different and it doesn't mean that something hurts and it doesn't mean he feels tired. Last night he told me he thought he was going to die. I assured him he would not but it made me feel sad for him that he thinks about this stuff.
Last night I asked my husband to hide the alcohol. I don't know if I have a legit problem, but I think I do. I've started relying on drinking at night to relax and have fun. Also I overeat when I'm drunk. So I asked DH to hide the Jack and he never remembers anything but he must realize I meant business because sure enough it was gone this morning.
Just to clarify: I never drink during the day when my son is home. At the most I might have one drink when my husband takes my son to the inlaws on Sundays but it's rare that I do that. And I never drink if I have to drive after. But I've been having one or two drinks every night and a big drink fest with my husband at least once a week. I think that's a lot. And it's probably a problem that I look forward to it and feel deprived if I choose to skip it.
So that's what's up.
My son is doing well, we use the monster spray still, not every night but most nights he asks for it. He's having this odd problem at night now where he feels "old". I have asked him what that means and he can't clarify. His stomach hurts, his legs hurt, etc. etc. which I think may have to do with growing pains as we took him to the dr. before and they found nothing wrong. But he says the feeling old is something different and it doesn't mean that something hurts and it doesn't mean he feels tired. Last night he told me he thought he was going to die. I assured him he would not but it made me feel sad for him that he thinks about this stuff.
Last night I asked my husband to hide the alcohol. I don't know if I have a legit problem, but I think I do. I've started relying on drinking at night to relax and have fun. Also I overeat when I'm drunk. So I asked DH to hide the Jack and he never remembers anything but he must realize I meant business because sure enough it was gone this morning.
Just to clarify: I never drink during the day when my son is home. At the most I might have one drink when my husband takes my son to the inlaws on Sundays but it's rare that I do that. And I never drink if I have to drive after. But I've been having one or two drinks every night and a big drink fest with my husband at least once a week. I think that's a lot. And it's probably a problem that I look forward to it and feel deprived if I choose to skip it.
So that's what's up.
