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Dec. 27th, 2017 02:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
becomingkate I can't figure out how I turned into the shyest and yet the most attention-craving person in the world at the same time. I can't function in social situations, but I want people to notice me, remember me, talk to me. it's a conundrum. How do I make this happen?
Now I'm getting e mails about Honors classes at the community college. You also get a scholarship, I'm not sure if it's for the CC only or if you can use it once you move on to another college. Thing is, I'm already registered for Spring and then I only have 3 classes left to take, and I wanted to do an internship (which counts as a class because you have to go to a seminar once a week as well as do the internship).
I just don't want to get too loaded down. I have my son's schedule to work around too, and I want to work as soon as I can so I can start contributing to this family. But of course I want to take advantage of the Honors program because that would look good on my transcript.
Christmas was okay. I still felt like my son and husband weren't really part of the family. I wished they would hang out and socialize more. My husband uses the excuse of having to keep an eye on my son. That worked when he was 3, but he's 11 now and can take care of himself.
My husband got us a new oven for Christmas. I'm excited! Ours was a mess, lol. One burner didn't work anymore and it always leaked heat and smoked and it was starting to smell funny. So it will be delivered tomorrow and then I have to call the electrician to hook it up.
I was irritated because literally nobody asked how school was going. My husband and son were excited for me which was nice, but then over Christmas not a single person asked. My mom would have asked and I might have rubbed it in her face that not only did I not report that I have a learning disability (which I still claim that I don't, and she claimed that I do), but that I was a note taker for two classes and got a 4.0 GPA. I don't think there even is any documentation that I have ADD, which you need to provide if you are going to get special services. But anyone can get tutoring, and I seemed to do okay with just that. Just saying.
I'm not bitter though.
I have been told I need extra help all my life and people wonder why I have low expectations of myself.
Now I'm getting e mails about Honors classes at the community college. You also get a scholarship, I'm not sure if it's for the CC only or if you can use it once you move on to another college. Thing is, I'm already registered for Spring and then I only have 3 classes left to take, and I wanted to do an internship (which counts as a class because you have to go to a seminar once a week as well as do the internship).
I just don't want to get too loaded down. I have my son's schedule to work around too, and I want to work as soon as I can so I can start contributing to this family. But of course I want to take advantage of the Honors program because that would look good on my transcript.
Christmas was okay. I still felt like my son and husband weren't really part of the family. I wished they would hang out and socialize more. My husband uses the excuse of having to keep an eye on my son. That worked when he was 3, but he's 11 now and can take care of himself.
My husband got us a new oven for Christmas. I'm excited! Ours was a mess, lol. One burner didn't work anymore and it always leaked heat and smoked and it was starting to smell funny. So it will be delivered tomorrow and then I have to call the electrician to hook it up.
I was irritated because literally nobody asked how school was going. My husband and son were excited for me which was nice, but then over Christmas not a single person asked. My mom would have asked and I might have rubbed it in her face that not only did I not report that I have a learning disability (which I still claim that I don't, and she claimed that I do), but that I was a note taker for two classes and got a 4.0 GPA. I don't think there even is any documentation that I have ADD, which you need to provide if you are going to get special services. But anyone can get tutoring, and I seemed to do okay with just that. Just saying.
I'm not bitter though.
I have been told I need extra help all my life and people wonder why I have low expectations of myself.
